It's only when you grow older that you finally understand the joy of your childhood, the reason being is your innocence. Your too innocent to understand the horrible things in the world, that the things you do and say hurt others, that the only competition in primary school was how fast you could run or how fast you could multiply, you never would have thought that the current generation would have changed so much from what we once knew it as, stressing over exams and futures at only the age of 14 and 15, when our lives are only getting started. Constantly worrying about the way we look because that seems to be more important than the qualities that lay in our hearts. All these problems that we failed to see when we were little, because change is paramount, whether we like it or not, things change all the time. What we expect and what we get are two different things.

 

I find myself nostalgic at the times when I didn't have to worry that my grades weren't good enough or that I didn't have any idea what I want to be when I'm older, when all that mattered was when it was time to play and when it's time to watch my favorite kids channel, CBeebies. It's a shame to think that I don't have these things to look forward to anymore. One thing I seemed to remember was the time I was around 6 or 7 years old, I was walking to school, and I was having a conversation to my mom about growing up. I was saying that I was sick and tired of not being taken seriously just because I was younger than everybody else around me, that I wanted to do the sorts of things that adults did, going to work, cooking and earning my own money, but ultimately, the real reason I wanted to be an adult, was to find myself. To get to know my likes and dislikes, my favorite movies and series, my hobbies and enthusiasm for certain subjects.

 

To think that I would have never discovered these things about myself if I didn't grow up is hard to thing to process. Would I have risked not growing up and not learning about myself as a result? Honestly, no, I wouldn't. Why you ask? Because, when I was younger, I had no idea who I was, yes I had a name, but what good is a name when you don't know who you are. Only when I grew up and was able to observe the world and the way it really was, was I able to pick up lessons along the way. Although it's true that I have a lot to learn, I'm proud of the changes that I made and the way I am. Fundamentally, we have growing up and change to thank for all this. Sometimes change comes at the time we need it the most rather than when we want it to come, but my advice to you would be that as you go into your adulthood, never forget your childhood and how you got to where you are. Adulthood is an important thing but not as important as your childhood. Your going to find yourself at the age of 20 and 30 dancing around you room in your pajamas, watching anime and Disney movies whilst baking cookies and chocolate brownies, and running to a convenience store at 1 in the morning having the time of your life Your always going to have just a part of your childhood engraved in your heart forever.