Yes, my 'fan's view' curse has struck once more! It's a sad fact that whenever I've agreed to do the report in the eyes of a supporter for the Guardian, we've gone on to lose the match at the weekend.

Some eight months on from that fateful afternoon at Wembley, I still say the reason that we lost that day was down to me agreeing to write the 'fans view' of the game for the Guardian. It was all my fault I'm afraid.

So when I was asked to write a piece last week on our Colchester game last Saturday, why, I can hear you fellow O's saying, did I not do the team a favour and politely decline?

It was tempting but then after much thought I considered that we were playing our neighbours from Essex who had lost their previous five home league games, had just sold their best player and were below even us in the league. I had recently picked them out as being one of the four sides worse than us in the division that would keep us up this season, so it was a match that even Leyton Orient could not lose.

It was the 'A12 derby', for sure one of the great occasions in world football, a match to rival Liverpool v Everton, Celtic v Rangers and other such rivalries, and as such our players would be duly lifted and bring home the three points. The curse would be forever banished, and the seeds of safety would have been sewn.

Well as far as my feelings went, I was right in one respect. Colchester truly were rubbish. The only minor problem with my thought process however, was that we were even more rubbish. For me the game was summed up at the start of the second half in relation to the taking of corners. Two minutes after the restart the home side get one, their player nips in at the near post and scores.

Ten minutes later we get one on the left and Dean Cox is unable to get the ball past their first defender on the six-yard box. Poor Colchester defending however gives us the chance to make amends as we immediately get another one on the opposite side.

This time up steps John Lundstram to take it and lo and behold this time it is he who is unable to beat the first United man on the edge of the six-yard box and this time the ball is cleared. It really did just sum up the entire 90 minutes as far as the Orient were concerned.

We did rally a little and improved for the last half an hour, having a goal disallowed and putting in a couple of valid claims for a penalty, but by then the damage had been done. At 2-0 down with many teams you know the match is far from over, but we are Leyton Orient and coming back from two down to win or even draw is just not in our DNA.

Just look the contrast with fellow League One side Bradford City last Saturday who came from a couple down to win 4-2 (mind you they were only playing Chelsea I suppose you could argue, while we were up against the mighty Colchester.) Like all O's, I'm struggling to understand where it's all gone wrong this season.

And I wonder what all our new Italian friends, watching us on our reality television show in their country, make of it all. I've got to be honest and admit I've never watched 'Big Brother' or 'I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here' on the television over here, but I'm led to believe that if the participants are doing badly, the general public have the choice to remove them from the show.

If that's the case then surely it can only be a matter of time before the folk on the Mediterranean have all our team voted out.

I'm still just about hopeful that we can stay up this season, though I wouldn't bet my last pizza on it. And I've decided that until we've started to climb to safety, I've retired my position as a 'fan's view' participant. It's the least I can do for East London's premier league team who I love so much.

Up the O's.