When Emilie-Mai MacCormack had her first miscarriage, she did not want to know why. She was far too distraught and heartbroken to face any sort of reality.
But when she miscarried again just months later, Miss MacCormack, who lives in Hyde Avenue, Potters Bar, discovered she had a condition which caused blood clots in her placenta and given medication to treat it.
Although she has gone on to have two healthy babies, it has been a bumpy ride and she is now raising money for the neonatal unit at Barnet General Hospital.
Her first miscarriage came when she was just 19 when she was 23 weeks pregnant with Jordan. When she lost her daughter, Michaela, she was just 20 weeks along.
Now 24, Emilie is mum to Mia-Mai, four months and Kai, two – although both arrived early due to complications during pregnancy.
She said: “I tell people, it is fine if you want to be a young mother – but can you deal with it if something goes wrong?
“It was traumatic. I had counselling and I want other women to know – don’t be afraid to get help.”
A 27-week scan showed the baby had stopped growing so he had to be delivered 13 weeks early.
However during the caesarean, the doctors noticed something rather unusual – she had two wombs.
“It means my womb doesn’t stretch – so the baby stopped growing because he had no room left, it was like he was living in half a house.
“Doctors said I was really lucky to get pregnant because conception is so rare.
“The first time I held Kai he was on loads of tubes. I held him for two seconds and had to put him back as his blood pressure was dropping. I was so, so depressed.”
Little Kai was diagnosed with chronic lung disease and spent 61 days in intensive care, but pulled through to become a healthy and happy two year old.
It wasn’t until she took him home that she realised the milestones she had missed out on with Jordan and Michaela, and felt devastated at the prospect of having no more children.
In September 2013, the now 24-year-old fell pregnant with Mia and said the treatment and support she received at Barnet General Hospital was “amazing”.
Mia, who was born a few months early, has bleeds on the brain although doctors cannot yet say whether these will have lasting effects.
And now Emilie is now holding charity events to support the unit that saved her children’s lives.
Earlier this year she held a bake sale which raised £165, and in September she plans to hold a baby bric-a-brac sale as well as a zumbathon.
She added: “The NHS are under so much strain, but they do a wonderful job so we should support them as much as we can.”